I Am Not Yours

I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.

Oh plunge me deep in love, put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind,
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.

Collection: 
1911

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And kiss me, kiss me, kiss me!

I hoped that he would love me,
And he has kissed my mouth,
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For though I know he loves me,
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I would empty my soul of the dreams that have gathered in me,
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I thought of you and how you love this beauty,
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